i realised after sooooo long
i didnt know him. like AT ALL.
like after...
*counts*
4 years.
ok with 1 1/2 of no contact.
but then i believed i knew him,
like i believed i know my frens
to a certain extent.
and i just realised i was wrong.
like that day after talking to her.
its like he had to say that
just after i was hurt.
as if it was to hurt me further.
like when he knew clearly what
was going on, and i was left in
the dark.
at least for the most part of the
time till now i always gave the
benefit of the doubt.
now when i really know,
i felt so stupid.
really stupid.
and i realised a lot of what he
did was because of the male ego.
and suddenly i realised.
maybe i didnt know him that
well after all.
maybe he was like this all the
time, just i was too blind to see,
or maybe i just didnt realise.
so what would have happened
if she had accepted.
would things have changed?
would things have become worse?
and now he has hurt her.
so what does it say then?
then maybe in the first place he
never did change?
just that people fail to see this
aspect of him?
maybe i would have been better
off not knowing.
then i wouldnt start to guess his
initial intentions.
for one of the only times
in my life, i truely believe
ignorance is bliss.
'what you think vs what it really is'
i didnt know him. like AT ALL.
like after...
*counts*
4 years.
ok with 1 1/2 of no contact.
but then i believed i knew him,
like i believed i know my frens
to a certain extent.
and i just realised i was wrong.
like that day after talking to her.
its like he had to say that
just after i was hurt.
as if it was to hurt me further.
like when he knew clearly what
was going on, and i was left in
the dark.
at least for the most part of the
time till now i always gave the
benefit of the doubt.
now when i really know,
i felt so stupid.
really stupid.
and i realised a lot of what he
did was because of the male ego.
and suddenly i realised.
maybe i didnt know him that
well after all.
maybe he was like this all the
time, just i was too blind to see,
or maybe i just didnt realise.
so what would have happened
if she had accepted.
would things have changed?
would things have become worse?
and now he has hurt her.
so what does it say then?
then maybe in the first place he
never did change?
just that people fail to see this
aspect of him?
maybe i would have been better
off not knowing.
then i wouldnt start to guess his
initial intentions.
for one of the only times
in my life, i truely believe
ignorance is bliss.
'what you think vs what it really is'
